Just another quick reminder to not let anger take over your life. Release your anger towards other people and yourself. You only hurt yourself by holding on to that anger. And know that in the moments that you fail to let go of your anger God still loves you and wants you to be happy and nothing you can do will take that away.


When People Let You Down

The quote above has been a staple in my life over the last month. When we think back over our lives we all have people that we love that have hurt us and often times we let those moments of hurt consume our lives. And I am not saying that I am faultless with this. I have spent a majority over the last month angry. I have been angry with the person in question and I have been even more angry with God.

Something I want to say is that I don’t want to be angry with God. I don’t think it’s justified but I truly can not help how I feel. I have prayed and prayed for my anger to leave me or to find a way for me to diminish the feeling. However, here is the problem.

I am in the wrong. It is not God’s fault that what happened, happened. He is an amazing God that gave us free will to do what we wanted. And if I’m angry I’m choosing to be angry and there’s nothing that He can do. He can give me strength and guidance but ultimately it is my decision to let go of my anger. I am the only person that is in control of my emotions. And as hard as it is for me to accept that this is my doing I need to because that is the only way that I am going to get over this.

I am better. I am not as angry anymore and everyday it is a little bit easier. And I am so grateful that I am working through this. The lesson that I am taking from this is something that I had forgotten. My relationship with God is just like any other relationship, it takes work and there are going to be days where our relationship isn’t the strongest. Just like any other relationship, the hard work in the end is worth it.

Right Place at the Right Time??

So lately all my boyfriend has been able to talk about is getting a motorcycle. His Dad just recently bought one and that has sparked the conversation multiple times between us about him getting a motorcycle. I’m honestly not the hugest fan of that idea. Here’s the thing, he is a grown up, he’s 22 years old and I am not going to tell him what to do. If he wants a motorcycle he can get one and I am totally going to make him teach me how to ride it if he does. It just scares me. I know that he would be extremely safe when riding a motorcycle I just don’t trust other people and sometimes things happen. I don’t ever want him to get hurt. This weekend I saw something that really shook me to the core but, also gave me clarity on that situation. 

My friends and I were down at Citizens Bank Park in Philadelphia on Saturday for the Billy Joel concert that was there. Which, by the way, was amazing and everything I could have dreamed of. On the way home we accidentally ended up on I-95 south which is the opposite direction of where we are supposed to be going. We were scrambling trying to figure out what exit to get off at and how to actually get home. Suddenly my friend, we will call him RA, that was driving cursed and swerved a little. My friend, we will call JT, and I that were in the back looked at each other confused because we were quite a few yards from the car in front of us and we didn’t see anything else happen. RA told us that a motorcyclist just went down ahead of us. He is a firefighter so he immediately pulled over and went to go help. Two other cars also pulled over to help. So JT and our other friend, let’s call her BM, and I kind of looked at each other like what the heck are we supposed to do. We all wanted to get out and help so I left about a minute after RA. 

I ran over to where everyone had gathered fearing the worst. I knew that I could handle blood so I wasn’t too concerned about myself I just didn’t want to cry and be unable to do anything. When I got over there RA and another man were on the phone with 911 and they were trying to figure out exactly where we were so that the police and ambulance could find us. Another man, who was wearing a kilt which was something else that I wasn’t expecting to happen that night, reversed his car along the interstate and placed it so that another car wouldn’t accidentally hit us as we waited for the police. Standing around the motorcyclist while he was on the ground did not seem right. So I knelt down beside him and was trying to get him to be as still as possible while we waited. I held his hand and I found out his name was Dan. Looking at him, his knees were pretty messed up and he was scared to straighten his one leg. JT and BM came over and JT was by his head and BM was next to me. We got him to call his Dad and he talked to another friend about being able to pick him up whenever he was discharged from the hospital. We got him to smile when I said he probably doesn’t know where we were from since he has a New Jersey license and he told me that he knows exactly where that is. We stayed with him until he was put into the ambulance and I quick got his phone number so that I could check on him the next day.

He broke his foot and shattered his knee cap. All things considered he is lucky. He was wearing a helmet and a leather jacket and riding gloves plus, he was being safe when it happened. He hit a dip in the road and slide his bike. It wasn’t his fault it just kind of happened. 

I believe that there is a reason that my friends and I just happened to go on the wrong interstate. We know that area well and we have all driven home from Philly multiple times so we should have known where to go. It was just something that happened. Dan needed us to be there for him during a really scary time while he was hurt and confused. I needed to be there as well. I needed to see what the affects of riding a motorcycle could be. It made me realize that things happen for a reason. If one day my boyfriend buys a motorcycle that’s fine because I have to trust that God has a plan and that He will protect him. I know that I will still worry for him because that’s what I do especially, for someone that I care about.

This is not an experience that I ever wanted to go through or ever expected to go through but I am stronger from it and I pray for Dan everyday now that he heals quickly and continues to be safe. My boyfriend also doesn’t have to listen to me tell him that he should never ride a motorcycle so I know that he will be forever grateful for that. Things happen for a reason and this was a quick slap in the face reminder of that. 


-With Love, Kamilla

Where Are Those Sheep Going?

Therefore Jesus said again, “Very truly I tell you, I am the gate for the sheep. All who have come before me are thieves and robbers, but the sheep have not listened to them. I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture.”  John 10:7-9

The Bible is so so hard to understand at times. There are like 50 million parables and then there are like 42 references to sheep and so many metaphors. All of that confusing stuff also is what seems to include incredibly important parts of the Bible.

Take the above verse for example. It is talking about sheep and gates like what the heck are they talking about. If we focus on the sheep portion the verse makes much more sense. 

We all know what a sheep is. They are basically cotton balls with legs and a head and they are not that bright. God did not bless them with extreme smarts but he did bless them with a very strong herd mentality. This herd mentality means that sheep are going to follow their leader. A group of sheep will only follow their shepherd. And if we take this information and put it in a biblical sense then we can realize that what Jesus is saying is that those who follow him are the sheep. Not in the sense that we are dumb but in the sense that we will follow Jesus to wherever he is going to lead us. Those who are truly his sheep ignore false prophets and focus on Him and only follow Him. 

Jesus says that He is going to lead the sheep (us) through a gate and into pasture. A pasture would be the best place for a sheep. It would have tons of food and it is protected by their shepherd so they are not constantly in fear. What Jesus is saying is that he is leading us to Heaven. Following Jesus will take us to those pearly gates and allow us to enter into our eternal paradise. 



Reflection:Jesus is leading us to Heaven. 


The Best Nightlight

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12

This verse is a very iconic and talked about verse in the Bible because it is one that perfectly describes why we need Jesus in our lives. 

The Bible is really big on this whole “walking in the light thing” later on in John chapter 11 “Jesus replied “There are twelve hours of daylight every day. During the day people can walk safely. They can see because they have the light of this world. But at night there is danger of stumbling because they have no light.” (John 11:9-10) 

I think that this verse gives us even greater insight into what Jesus means when he says that He is the light of the world. What He is saying is that He is the only one who is able to show us the way to go so we will not stumble in our lives. When we accept Jesus into our lives we become Christians which means that we are going to try and live our lives in a way that most reflects Christ. However, as humans we are imperfect which means that there are going to be times that we mess up and those times are the times where we have strayed out of the light and into the darkness. The connection Jesus draws for us with the day also means that after darkness the light comes back. We are never going to be unable to find the light of Jesus in our lives. We are never too lost in the darkness for its to find him once again.

Something else that is interesting is that Jesus says that he is the light of life. We know that without the sun here on Earth almost nothing would survive, except for maybe Extremophiles which are just crazy bacteria that can survive in extreme conditions. Jesus is the sun for our souls and unfortunately our souls are not Extremophiles. Our souls thrive in the light of Jesus and we need this light to be in us to receive eternal life in Heaven when our earthly bodies die. 


Reflection: There is only one way for us to not stumble through our lives and for us to receive eternal life and that is through the light of the world. 

Actions Speak Louder Than Words

The Bible is once again hammering into us that we should love one another. This verse though is a call to action. We can merely say that we love one another and never do anything to show that we love one another. As this weeks starts again we should all strive to act in love rather than just saying we love. 

*created using the Bible app and it’s the verse of the day* 

Even Greater Than Sliced Bread

“Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.” John 6:35

Hunger and thirst is something that all of us feel in our lives. They are two very primal feelings that are a part of our survival in this world because without food and water we would quite literally die. However, something that people don’t think about is the spiritual hunger and thirst that we all feel.

Think about how many times you hear that someone is “trying to find themselves” or that they are “going on a spiritual journey”. There are books, movies and talk show segments dedicated to this subject and people seem to skip right past the one thing that can provide them with spiritual “fullness”.

Jesus is the bread and wine for our spiritual hunger and thirst. He tells us that whoever believes in him and comes to him will never be thirsty or hungry. He is not talking about physical hunger or thirst. He is talking about our spiritual hunger where we feel like we are missing something from our lives. You know that feeling where we are looking around at everything in our life and we know that we just have this little bit of longing for something that we can’t quite place that seems like is missing in our life. People will try and fill that hollowness with things like sex, drugs, alcohol, gambling and shopping. What ends up happening though is that makes the hollowness more prominent in their lives and they become lost. They push themselves further from Christ as well.

C.S. Lewis says “If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” That other world is what our world becomes when Jesus is a part of our life. Jesus fills us up with the Holy Spirit and makes us whole again. Jesus is the missing piece of our life.

Reflection: Jesus is the only way to truly become whole and achieve true fullness in life.

Who is Jesus?

This is a question that has crossed everyone’s mind at some point in their life. How could it not? Almost weekly we hear stories of how Jesus has saved someone and changed their lives forever. Wars are started in His name and against His name. People stand on street corners in the middle of Times Square and preach about Him. Other people go to colleges and hand out New Testaments to barely awake college students so that they can find Him in their lives. Jesus is everywhere and He is impossible to miss, which means it’s impossible to not wonder who this Jesus is.

In this devotional series we are going to explore who God is. The best way to do that is to turn to the Bible and see what it says in there. Through out the Bible, Jesus specifically says who he is. Those times are called the “I am” statements and it is the best way for us to learn who Jesus is. Who Jesus is, is laid out right in front of us we just have to look for it. We are going to be looking at them together and reflecting on them to better understand who exactly is Jesus Christ.



Christianos – Follower of Christ

The word “Christian” comes from the Greek word Christianos which means “follower of Christ”.  In today’s world the word Christian has come to mean so many other things besides a follower of Christ. Christians are looked upon in anger because we are seen as hateful people. We hate other religions, people of a different race, people of a different sexual orientation, people that vote for one person over another and anyone who doesn’t think like us. This does not reflect all Christians and that’s no where near what I am trying to say. The fact of the matter though is that there are enough Christians that express hatred or dislike that we as a whole have come to be seen as hateful which is the exact opposite of what we are called to do.

We as Christians need to remember the greatest commandments that were given to us. The Bible tells us two times what these commandments are.

“Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. One of them, an expert in the Law, tested him with this question: “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied ” Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments. Matthew 22:34-40

And again in Mark 12:28-31:

“One of the teachers of the Law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”  “The most important one,” answered Jesus, is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no greater commandment than these.” 

“There is no greater commandment than these” it says it right there in black and white and further more the Bible tells us that the word of God is built on these two commandments. Everything is in the Bible for a reason and the fact that this story was shared in two separate Gospels is basically like God putting a flashing neon sign in the Bible and being like “Hey, I really need you to pay attention to this because it is super important!!”. We are completely missing this in our lives and how can we say we are followers of Christ if we aren’t going to listen to a commandment that He specifically gave us when He was asked “What is the most important commandment?”. Every time we do something mean and turn around and say that we are a Christian we are telling people that, that is what it means to be a Christian. We are ambassadors of Christ and we need to try and implement that in our lives. If we go around loving people and letting God’s love shine through us and then we turn around and say that we are Christians we will be fulfilling this commandment and loving our neighbors. Then we as a collective can change people’s minds about us so that they know that we are loving and we want them to come us so that we can help them accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior and become a Christian as well.

We do need to remember that we are going to mess up sometimes. We are not perfect and there are going to be times where we get angry or frustrated and we are mean. The only thing we can do is pray for forgiveness and keep trying to follow what Christ has commanded us to do. Truthfully, you don’t have to like everyone you met but you do have to love them because that is what your Lord wants you to do.




*This article was not posted to make anyone feel guilty or to say that I am the most loving and perfect Christian because I am not. This was posted because there has been a lot of hate going around lately and I think that at times we all need a reminder of who we are in Christ and what we are called to do.*